How Motherhood Changed Me




Motherhood is a life {let’s not forget, body} changing experience and believe me when I say that there’s not any book, movie, advice or any kind of words that anybody can say to you that will prepare you for it. Sometimes in life, there are some things that you can only understand after you have experienced them. Motherhood is exactly that. 

Becoming a momma changed everything for me. Before motherhood, I enjoyed going out with friends, staying up late and not having a care in the world. I was selfish at times and only genuinely cared about myself. But when I became a mother, all of this changed. I changed. I’m no longer the carefree girl I used to be, instead of being selfish, I’ve learned to be selfless and now, my family is my everything. 
My kids are my main concern. I constantly worry if I’m doing things right, comparing myself to the other moms out there. Because let’s be honest, even though we are all doing our best to be the best moms we can be, we still second guess ourselves at times, often when we shouldn’t. Being a stay at home mom is the hardest, most rewarding job I’ve ever had. And you know what? I love my life more than I ever did before. 

Motherhood gave me a purpose in life. It filled a void that I never knew I had. It opened up parts of my heart and soul that I didn’t even know existed. It also taught me the meaning of a true, selfless love. Not the kind between a man and a woman, the kind of love that only a mother can understand. It was never one of those, “I’m not sure I love you”, it was one of the instant “as soon as I laid my eyes on you when the doctor put you on my chest for the first time.” It was immediate, indescribable and boy, it’s the strongest love I will ever feel. Don’t get me wrong, I love Jordan very much. He helped give me these precious little humans and I love him deeply for that, but our love will never be the same as the love I have for our children. And I know he feels exactly the same. 

Over the last eight years, I have a learned a good bit. While there’s still so much to encounter, it’s one day at a time. It’s like being in Middle/High school, I’m there, but I’m not quiet there yet. Everyday is a different day in motherhood. Some are easy, some are hard. Some days make the hard days seem easy. It’s crazy, really. Especially once you get into the toddler stages, then you never knew how much you could piss a kid off by giving him the red plate for dinner and not the blue plate. And I’d almost guarantee, maybe not always, but some days, you’ll give in and switch all of his food over to that damn blue plate because you’re exhausted and just want to eat because you haven’t had time to even scarf down that piggie and a blanket from breakfast. 

Motherhood has also taught me to not be so judgmental towards other moms. When I was pregnant with my first, I had a very complex view on how things should be done. But nearly eight years later, I have accepted that different people make different choices based on what is right for them. And that is okay, too. There isn’t any one right way to do things. Whether it’s breastfeeding or bottle feeding, fed is best. Anti Vax VS Vaxxed is the same concept. It’s universal, so to each their own on this one. No one mother can be right for everyones situation. 

Last, but not certainly not least, becoming a mother has taught me to love myself. I think I’ve always loved myself to a certain degree, but I know I have had my doubts. Ever since becoming a mom, it’s like I was reborn. For once in my life, I can honestly say that I love myself more than I ever have before. It just took a little bit of reconnecting with my old self and finding my new self. I am happy, calmer, a lot more patient and I feel complete and my life is everything I dreamed it would be. Being a mom has definitely created a better version of myself, that I love dearly. I have even found a new love for writing {which is another great reason why I started this blog}, I love to craft and read also. Sometimes I’ll catch myself staying up late after everyone is asleep just to have a moment for myself. We all need that. It’s the simple things like this — that help us be better moms. Happy mommas. 

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I have planned to make another post very similar to this one, in the near future. So if you love this post, comment and let me know how motherhood has changed you. Also, I love to know what kinds of posts you’d like to see here on The Youthful Momma. I have lots of plans for this year and one of them is to take more time out to post here. Lots of love to each of you mommas! Stay strong and be the best you that you can be! xox

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